The Canal

This one is dedicated to my friend.

Breaking The Habit.

Memories consume

Like opening the wound

I’m picking me apart again

You all assume

I’m safe here in my room (unless I try to start again)

I don’t want to be the one

The battles always choose

‘Cause inside I realize

That I’m the one confused

I don’t know what’s worth fighting for

Or why I have to scream

I don’t know why I instigate

And say what I don’t mean

I don’t know how I got this way

I know it’s not alright

So I’m Breaking the habit Tonight

Clutching my cure

I tightly lock the door

I try to catch my breath again

I hurt much more

Than anytime before

I had no options left again

I’ll paint it on the walls

‘Cause I’m the one at fault

I’ll never fight again

And this is how it ends

I don’t know what’s worth fighting for

Or why I have to scream

But now I have some clarity

To show you what I mean

I don’t know how I got this

I’ll never be alright

So I’m Breaking the habit Breaking the habit Tonight

Its not a good feeling to become a reason of someone's distraction. Very few people know the right things they want in life and i respect them for this. Focus, determination and hard work. Lately, i have seen everyone disappearing in the flow. Absolutely everyone i associate with have found things to indulge in. I have always been the confused soul. Someone who can't focus. But i won't let the others get distracted by me. I thought this over a phone call in the evening and came to a conclusion that "yes" i don't get the point. Maybe its right, or completely wrong. I don't know. Priorities should not be shuffled, and i'll hate myself if it happens because of me. Funny how things changed. I see everyone around. People have moved to different places. They are doing different things. Doing everything according to their own wish.So much has changed in past one year and i have been stuck here, in the same place. It's the same comp, same house, same room, same burger, same me. Am i worth anything? Yeah, you are right....my poor brain.

Babylon

I woke up on saturday morning in a state of utter confusion. My friend wants me to pull my car out cause he needs to pull his out of the driveway.I got up, rubbing sleep off my eyes.My companion was gone.I couldn't send my morning message.Saturday passed in a haze.There was a lot of comfort in her presence.There was nothing in my head and everything seemed so bright and colorful.People discussing there Stanley Climbfall(that's how i like to term it), people probing their creativity and imagination.It brought in a sense of togetherness in the most secluded form.That's how we connect.Its pure and its selfless. I want to make sure that i don't forget this ever. My drive back to mysore on sunday night.I've never felt so lonely.There was babylon ringing in my head and then there were a string of songs which didn't affect me that much.And here i am.Sitting all by myself on monday night, retrospecting. And i see her again. On a screen, 15inches wide.I told her in the afternoon today.She is happy, well why won't she be?

Friday night I'm going nowhere

All the lights are changing green to red

Turning over TV stations

Situations running through my head

Well looking back through time

You know it's clear that I've been blind

I've been a fool

To ever open up my heartTo all that jealousy, that bitterness, that ridicule
Saturday I'm running wild

And all the lights are changing red to green

Moving through the crowd

I'm pushing

Chemicals all rushing through my bloodstream

Only wish that you were here

You know I'm seeing it so clearI've been afraid

To tell you how I really feel

Admit to some of those bad mistakes I've made
If you want it

Come and get it

Crying out loudT

he love that I was

Giving you was

Never in doubt

Let go your heart

Let go your head

And feel it now

Sunday all the lights of LondonShining ,

Sky is fading red to blue

I'm kicking through the Autumn leaves

And wondering where it is you might be going to

Turning back for home

You know I'm feeling so alone

I can't believe

Climbing on the stairI turn around to see you smiling there

In front of me

Alive

I was trying to forget it. But somehow it came on the surface again. Its painful when you are trying to catch hold of anything possible that gives you back some oxygen. Some breath. My own body letting me go. Its like this force which is smothering me. I somehow made it through again. Again, saviours come in the most unexpected form. Wish i could draw apathy from what had happened. But then its easier to laugh when you are on the outside. Peace. I am alive.

My Iron Lung.

Staring at the clear blue sky, i realised that the air is really fresh in my city. It is soothing, it has a certain calm.People at work ask me all the time "what do you do there? all alone... all by yourself...." . I guess the answer lies in the question itself. I stay here, alone, all by myself...I had a perfect life.Things have changed though.This calm has become eerie.It reminds me that change is inevitable.And its going to happen soon.So many of us have been a part of this.But i am glad that i am still holding on the most precious thing in my life.And i hope it remains with me forever...

Full moon illuminates my room, and sends my mind aflight.
I think I was dreaming up some thoughts that were seemingly

Possible...with you.

So I call you on the tin can phone.
We rendezvous at a quarter-two, and make sure we’re alone.

I may have found a way for you and I to finally fly free.

When we get there, we’re gonna go far away.

Making sure to laugh; while we experience anti-gravity.

For years, I kept to myself.

Now potentialities are bound, and sleeping under my shelf.

Simply choose your destination from the diamond canopy,

And we’ll be there.

One Of My Favourite PT Songs.

You move in waves

You never retrace

Your newest craze

Straight out of the Face by the bed unread

I'm left behind

Like all the others

Some fall for you

It doesn't make much difference if they do

She changes every time you look

By summer it was all gone - now she's moved on

She called you every other day

So savour it it's all gone - now she's moved on

So for a while

Everything seemed new

Did we connect ?

Or was it all just biding time for you ?

I think she defines everything. Meg White.

Dig.
We All Have A WeaknessBut Some Of Ours Are Easier To Identify. Look Me In The EyeAnd Ask For Forgiveness;We'll Make A Pact To Never Speak That Word AgainYes You Are My Friend.We All Have Something That Digs At Us,At Least We Dig Each OtherSo When Weakenss Turns My Ego UpI Know You'll Count On The Me From YesterdayIf I Turn Into AnotherDig Me Up From Under What Is CoveringThe Better Part Of MeSing This SongRemind Me That We'll Always Have Each OtherWhen Everything Else Is Gone.We All Have A SicknessThat Cleverly Attaches And MultipliesNo Matter How Hard We Try.We All Have Something That Digs At Us,At Least We Dig Each OtherSo When Sickness Turns My Ego UpI Know You'll Act As A Clever Medicine.If I Turn Into AnotherDig Me Up From Under What Is CoveringThe Better Part Of Me.Sing This Song!Remind Me That We'll Always Have Each OtherWhen Everything Else Is Gone.Oh Each Other....When EverythingElse Is Gone.

Something very funny that i came across. My friend says "When you love someone,all your saved-up wishes start coming out. " :P.

Lunch?

The square table sits four this afternoon.

Four from seperate paths.

Aim to smile with the day.

Unhindered. Unwarranted.

The juices flow.

Creation beckons them with arms stretched across.

Thoughts tumble down like

Cascading white rapids on crack.

Fuelled by the twirling strands of nicotine smoke,Harking their prescence.

Incidents are exchanged at a feverish pace.

They believe this day shall end with them.

And vice versa.

Yet they conform to the common stand adopted by humanity

To live to see the light of another day.

Another day sang froid.

Dusk sets in as the bubbles in the wine disappear.

Words are spoken without the utterance of a single syllable.

The laughter subsides.

Stops short of dying away altogether.

"It's better that way", he said.

"Hope to meet you all next week."

We acknowledge in silence.

Now.... Who's blooming :P .

Quote of the Day

HIS Quote : "I asked a Burmese why women, after centuries of following their men, now walk ahead. He said there were many unexploded land mines since the war." ~Robert Mueller

HER Quote : "In passing, also, I would like to say that the first time Adam had a chance he laid the blame on a woman." —Nancy Astor (British Politician)

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