Breaking The Habit.

Memories consume

Like opening the wound

I’m picking me apart again

You all assume

I’m safe here in my room (unless I try to start again)

I don’t want to be the one

The battles always choose

‘Cause inside I realize

That I’m the one confused

I don’t know what’s worth fighting for

Or why I have to scream

I don’t know why I instigate

And say what I don’t mean

I don’t know how I got this way

I know it’s not alright

So I’m Breaking the habit Tonight

Clutching my cure

I tightly lock the door

I try to catch my breath again

I hurt much more

Than anytime before

I had no options left again

I’ll paint it on the walls

‘Cause I’m the one at fault

I’ll never fight again

And this is how it ends

I don’t know what’s worth fighting for

Or why I have to scream

But now I have some clarity

To show you what I mean

I don’t know how I got this

I’ll never be alright

So I’m Breaking the habit Breaking the habit Tonight

Its not a good feeling to become a reason of someone's distraction. Very few people know the right things they want in life and i respect them for this. Focus, determination and hard work. Lately, i have seen everyone disappearing in the flow. Absolutely everyone i associate with have found things to indulge in. I have always been the confused soul. Someone who can't focus. But i won't let the others get distracted by me. I thought this over a phone call in the evening and came to a conclusion that "yes" i don't get the point. Maybe its right, or completely wrong. I don't know. Priorities should not be shuffled, and i'll hate myself if it happens because of me. Funny how things changed. I see everyone around. People have moved to different places. They are doing different things. Doing everything according to their own wish.So much has changed in past one year and i have been stuck here, in the same place. It's the same comp, same house, same room, same burger, same me. Am i worth anything? Yeah, you are right....my poor brain.