Alive

I was trying to forget it. But somehow it came on the surface again. Its painful when you are trying to catch hold of anything possible that gives you back some oxygen. Some breath. My own body letting me go. Its like this force which is smothering me. I somehow made it through again. Again, saviours come in the most unexpected form. Wish i could draw apathy from what had happened. But then its easier to laugh when you are on the outside. Peace. I am alive.